Etched in My Heart

The struggle is real.

You’re pulling away. Everything I do or say is wrong.

I gave what I could: a home, food, clothing, fun family adventures and most importantly… love.

If you’re walking away thinking that everything I gave was bad or wrong; if that is what it takes for you to grow and move into the next stage of life, then I release you. I give you freedom to choose to stay or go.

I understand how difficult growth can be. I also know that someday, not far off into the future you will realize just what a gift that you’ve been given. The sweet memories of the laughter and the life we shared will bubble up… up to the surface from where you stuffed them.

I can see that the strong words you use are just a wall you are building to protect yourself from the memories so you can free yourself to move on.

You have my love, and I know that although you may not or perhaps choose to not say it, that you love me too.

So now I do my hardest work and that is on my knees, praying for you, my child. I pray for all those around me hiding in the darkness. I pray for them to see the light and for them to find their way once again.

And I trust in the strength that I’ve been given from above that you will indeed find your way. In the meantime, my tears are being collected, my worn-out jeans have been patched at the knee, and I press on. You, my child, are worth it all. You are etched into my very being… you are mine and you are so loved!  ~ Mom

*I wrote this several years back, but oh how it speaks to my momma’s heart. Indeed, the struggle is real. I hope it will help others who are struggling through this season.

Blessings,

~Debbie G

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